New Song: “I Won’t Back Down” chorus by Nijah Chnai (DMI 2012) 

Pre Chorus: 

No 6x… I won’t back down no

Chorus:

People try and say don’t believe just cuz I go through some things

But greater is he that’s in me and 

I won’t back down no

People try and tell me to change, but I’ll call on Jesus’ name,

for any and everything 

I won’t back down no. 

Background:

Based from the scripture I read recently in Proverbs I think it may be 3:11-13  it talks about correction being the other side of God’s grace.. beautiful right…. No matter what we do we should never stop believing just because we suffer. Sometimes we need to go through things in order for our faith to grow. Thank God for the opportunity to even be corrected/- Grateful for lessons learned and not fazed by the judgement of others. Not backing down :) 

Today’s church service taught me that sometimes I can’t just smile about everything like its all ok. Truth is I’ve been dealing with some things that will come to the light soon. I don’t know about you but I don’t want to miss my blessing because I can’t let go of what’s holding me back. Denial keeps you from the break through you need. How else do you grow if you don’t fall? How else do you trust and let love, love you if you don’t share the hurt that you feel inside. Today I challenge you to let it go. Find a confidant and cry out.

If you don’t cry out your answer will not arrive. The stupid things we do in this life have real consequences. mistakes hurt and embarrass us. No one wants to live in pain or shame.

Luckily I know a God who can save you and your life. don’t worry about how the predicament will be solved just pick up dust yourself off and start walking in the right direction. Look for His promise to make it alright and watch him work. I’m looking and I’m walking if only baby steps I’ll make it to where I need to be and I’m praying you are brave enough to come with me. 

Heavenly father,

I’m confused. I get distracted by criticism and random spouts of anger from others. I waste time on people who act like they are there for me but then turn around and act selfishly. They don’t call me back, they don’t react when I’m mad, they don’t listen to me take my time to vent and they don’t respect you. If only I could be honest enough and bold enough, I just want to make sense. I say one thing and do another and that behavior is just not cutting it. Can I start over? Is the truth really that hard to tell? I need your help Lord. I need your help to accept the signs I see to accept me for me and stop constantly comparing. Lord you’ve made some beautiful women. Some gorgeous women that appear to have hearts to match the beautiful image displayed, they look perfectly finished and wonderfully made. I want to walk in that. I want to walk in the truth I want to believe I’m that. All that you need me to be and then some. I’m tired of worrying about myself – I’m so tired of worrying about me! What food to eat, how I look, my body features, my almost dimples, the material possessions I have. This life is a struggle but I want nothing to do with getting caught up in all the good or bad. I get confused because I feel like if I were with you I wouldn’t ever feel conflicted. But I read your word and all I see is people who’ve been there and done that and have been beyond inflicted. So what is it? Am I afraid of being lonely, afraid I can’t control me, afraid that I’m not enough even to support me? I need your help I need your love, cuz there are times I feel that I should give up- don’t want to continue for me, I wish I was more like you but I constantly wonder around this world looking like a stupid fool- Lord please let me get this right just one time!